Good Will Hunting soundtrack – Luscious Jackson - Why Do I Lie? lyrics

I would love to be better
I would love to be free
I would love to be perfect
When you look at me
But instead I'm still crying
Yes instead I'm still lyin'
Sad to say I'm still tryin'
Not to be me
When I see all the weakness
That I turned into sickness
I still think I can slide
Just fine on the ice
It's not easy to be honest
Sometimes I'm just astonished
Heartache can lead to the tru--
Why do I lie?
Is it just to get by?
If I give up my lines would I die?
If fortunes are favored
Then I am enlabored
And I'm tryin' so hard to leave lyin' behind.
(lyin' behind)
I don't want to be hazy
I don't think that I'm crazy
But I've had some moments where I am not sure
And if you can forgive me
For just being human
Then I will try harder
To keep my words pure
I could be on the border
It could be a disorder
But honestly I think that I can't come clean
All of my stories
Might even be boring
If I could tell you
What they all mean
Why do I lie?
Is it just to get by?
If I give up my lives would I die?
If fortunes are favored
Then I am in labor
And I'm tryin' so hard to be (lyin' to hide) (?)