Heather Fleury – I'm Not Gonna Lie lyrics

I have many secrets I've learned to keep
Like, at night, it is hard for me to sleep
I sleep much better at night
When I am closer to the light

And now I am having a hard life
I used to erase it all with a knife
If I told you that I don't cry
Then that would be a lie

If I think twice
I could say my life is nice
But I know it's not
This is what I got

So now you know the real me
The girl who will never be free
The girl who's really tired
Who no one seems to admire

Who tried to fly away
Just like a soaring blue jay
I just don't know where I'm going
I don't know where the winds flowing

My life's not too bad
Even though I am always sad
I guess I am just dumb
Or I am just a lazy bum

Even though I try really hard at school
My grades are deffinitely not cool
I have a very weird mind
And my brain is sometimes hard to find

It's lost and confused
And my heart's being abused
I'm tired and I'm scared
But I know my life can be repaired

I have to keep trying to do my best
I have to make it better before I rest
But I know god will help me
He'll help repair my family

I know everything I am going through is real
But no matter what I have to try to deal
I am tired of living in hell
I want to hear the ring of heaven's bell

I hear everyone say I am strong
And they tell me that I am not wrong
I know everything they say is true
And I have to go home to a zoo

So I'm not gonna lie
And I'm not gonna cry
Because I know I am right
And I'm not gonna give up without a fight

Cuz' I'm not gonna lie
I am just gonna say good-bye