Linkin Park – Super Xero (By Myself Demo) lyrics

What do I do to ignore whats behind me? 
Do I follow my fate to escape blindly? 
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams 
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening? 
Do I let it go and try to stand it? 
Or do I try to catch them red-handed? 
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness 
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? 
The sunlight burns the skin of sleeping men 
I make the right turns but I'm lost within 
I put on my daily facade but then 
I just end up getting hurt again 
By myself 
MYSELF! I ask why 
but in my mind I find 
I can't rely on myself 
MYSELF! I ask why 
but in my mind I find 
I cant rely on myself 

I can't hold on 
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin 
It's all too much to take in 
I can't hold on 
To anything watching everything spin 
With thoughts of failure sinking in 

If turn my back I'm defenseless 
And to give into fate seems senseless 
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they'll 
Take from me till everything is gone 
If I let them go I'll be outdone 
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun 
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer 
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer 
By Myself 
MYSELF! I ask why 
but in my mind I find 
I can't rely on myself 
MYSELF! I ask why 
but in my mind I find 
I cant rely on myself 

I can't hold on 
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin 
It's all too much to take in 
I can't hold on 
To anything watching everything spin 
With thoughts of failure sinking in 

How do you think 
I've lost so much 
I'm always afraid 
That I'm out of touch 
How do you expect 
I will know what to do 
When all I know 
Is what you tell me to 

Don't you 
KNOW 
I can't tell you how to make it 
GO 
No matter what I do how hard I 
TRY 
I can't seem to convince myself 
WHY 
I'm stuck on the outside 
Don't you 
KNOW 
I can't tell you how to make it 
GO 
No matter what I do how hard I 
TRY 
I can't seem to convince myself 
WHY 
I'm stuck on the outside 

I can't hold on 
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin 
It's all too much to take in 
I can't hold on 
To anything watching everything spin 
With thoughts of failure sinking in 
I can't hold on 
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin 
It's all too much to take in 
I can't hold on 
To anything watching everything spin 
With thoughts of failure from with...