All i felt was the rush….and my legs turned to mush… lost all my power to reason with my gut….lying on my back on this rosary i clutch frozen in the moment and i think im really fucked……tonight im gonna die…..but i can see the sun come up…..im so fuckin high i feel it running thru my blood…collapsing my lungs all this hate to which i’ve clung…..im deaf and im dumb what the fuck have i done…..
hallucinating hold my hand i cant catch my breath…..and help me i’ve got pains in my chest…..paranoia’s agitating cardiac arrest…
a hypochondriac whos emulating visions of her death….i could have an aneurysm vessel bursting in my head half-dead like momma did i see her lying in the bed….can she see me lying naked on the floor…..praying to the lord cause i don’t wanna live no more…
give me a reason to live cause i wanna die why wont you forgive look what you done to me…..my heads in a sieve but i feel alive look what i did im so wasted…..
envision my oblivion saliva hangin on my chin another night of partyin with vomit on my cardigan druggin clubbin fuckin up in public…..cookin up my demon in my betty crooker oven suck it base it dragons chase it im nameless and faceless….im so wasted...head is heavy eyes are rolling feeling like my skin is boiling puking in a dirty toilet
spasming i cant control it….help me let me out…
or imma die tonight in some fuckin strangers house……teeth and tongue are numb with all my might
i try to shout no matter what i do no words are coming out……(scream) mind is snapped my relapse poisoned from rejection and im about to fucking crack…..fade to black …as this euphoria enslaves me….lord take me back....why wont you come and save me……
give me a reason to live cause i wanna die why wont you forgive look what you done to me…..my heads in a sieve but i feel alive look what i did im so wasted…