Paperboys – Change My Stars lyrics

I get the strangest ideas
get drunk
leave angels in tears turning flames into painful affairs
so now I’m lying here draining beers
I can’t explain it’s weird got me thinking damn maybe I’m scared
coz I’d like someone to listen to but I hate having to tell them I’m sorry for not missing you/feeling cold and this is difficult
guess love differs your periphial view sort of like sniffing glue
it was cool I know you hoped for us
didn’t mind that I smoked so much /I saw the signs
you opened up, gave me time
and everything was fine till I fucked up and broke your trust
but even so you never showed disgust
it’s like I find a surprise and all I wanted was to drown in her eyes
and lay surrounded by the sound of the skies
but I guss I never tried so for all of those lies
I apologise
“My intent was not to fail you all
See I’m just trying to change my stars
Got me locked at these crossroads thinking which way should I go
which way should I go
anticipating what the next day’s bringing
Try to prepare with your heartbeat racing
It’s kind of like when I’m writing my flows /thinking which way should I go /which way should I go”
Guess I’ve proven to be a handful /coz it’s like every other day another scandal
had a career but now they saying that it’s cancelled /ain’t that a whole lot of shit to be playing for some uncleared samples?
/quite more than I can stand for
but then again I kind of like your damn show coz my shit went gold
another shipment sold and all the other kids enrolled
coz what they do now I did before/and some of them did know
those who didn’t
now they heard it from you /so you’re the fool bringing my words into school /you’re just a tool i can use gaining success
now everyday is another I don’t give a fuck-fest
I just like the truth /there really ain’t that much left
and I don’t see how me talking about my life can make you upset
that’s too much stress you need to relax
and look around maybe jesus is back
go find him
Sometimes I wish that no one on this earth could stand me /if I deserved to be loved I wouldn’t hurt my family
fill my body with drugs while giving birth to panic /it’s like I’m just another worthless addict /shit
I ain’t even working at it /though I know, nobody’s perfect /I feel I’ve lost my right to ask for a purpose
it seems I just make it worse and search beneath the surface
and try to find some light up in this circus /but I’m nervous all I see is the mistakes I made
cut me open like a razor blade
and in these motherfucking crazy days feel my faith uncovered
pray the doctors will save my brother /think about the promises people make each other
but life interferes
got to do right by them that cared
ive been a burden for them to bear /so I know I can’t end it here