Rising Neptune – Disappear lyrics

I live in pain, withholding lies
Suffering, found in my eyes
A chance to leave is all I ask
To disappear, never come back
Give in to anger, run away
But because of you, I wanna stay
You know I love you, without a doubt
But this is my only way out

And it hurts to wake up knowing you're not
Living for anyone
And it takes all my strength to fake a smile
And pretend I'm having fun
How I wish this nightmare would reach its end
And the dream would be more clear
So I could finally grant my soul's desire
And just disappear

Without this mess, I'll be just fine
But without you, I'll lose my mind
What will I do, who will I be?
Wish I could take you with me
Give in to sadness, fade away
But because of you, I wanna stay
Now I must decide which force is stronger
And I must confess, it's getting harder

And it hurts to wake up knowing you're not
Living for anyone
And it takes all my strength to fake a smile
And pretend I'm having fun
How I wish this nightmare would reach its end
And the dream would be more clear
So I could finally grant my soul's desire
And just disappear

And the light is gone and the darkness is
Surrounding the place
The promise of a better life could never substitute
The sight of your face
I'd rather live in torture just so I could
Be with you
Than kill the pain and never see those eyes-
My only truth

And I always wake up knowing I'm just
Living for you
And since I have none, you're my strength
In all that I do
You chased the nightmare far from view
So the dream is bright and clear
Oh, the friendship we will always have
Won't ever disappear