The Closer I Get – Am lyrics

When I was 18 I was ready to go
Now I'm 23 and I just don't know
What fuck am I doing with my life?
And its hard to see when you're underwater
There's the surface and if you just try harder
Maybe you could reach the top for some air

But instead you just take this bottle
"I'm so fucked up" has become your motto

Wrists and knives are your supporting cast
In your film of lies and helplessness
That never quite was a blockbuster hit
Everyone turned you down, no one wanted a part of it

And you wish you had used a gun instead
There'd be no humiliation in the morning
And with a quick pull of the trigger
You could be gone like no one knew
But "Your beauty is a privilege, and I won't let you waste it on you."

So he thinks about starting again
But instead eats pills to spite his friends
He collapses on the floor and wakes up in a hospital bed

And he wonders what made him lose control
Shaking and spinning in a bathroom all alone
As the flames of imperfection burn him to the bone

He replaced his fears with bars and beer
Records his songs with a feigned blissful cheer
Though his feelings retreat with every drink

And he knows she going to go out tonight
With her tinted hair and a beer thats light
She knows she a slut but will never admit to it

You wish you had used a gun instead
There'd be no humiliation in the morning
And with a quick pull of the trigger
You could be gone like no one knew
But "Your beauty is a privilege, and I won't let you waste it on you."

1 2 3 4 5 am
pass the bottle another one night stand
6 7 8 9 10
finish the bottle and end the weekend.