The Golden Palominos – Gun lyrics

it's feeling like the same old dance
we never even had a chance
you say it will be alright
but I'm lying awake tonight
it's a lie
I thought you could be the one
but I might as well use a gun
I'm dying inside
and this deep longing grows
and I'm so tired
I'm so tired

you're dreams are mine / you have
do you know that? / reason to be proud
you can fall asleep / you dream aloud, dream aloud I'll be awake
and you can travel far / reason to be proud
and I'll be here if you should / dream aloud
fall apart / dream aloud

I'm lonely as I've ever been
my patience is wearing thin
you're love is a killing ache
don't know how much I can take
I thought you could bring the sun
but I might as well use a gun
I'm dying inside
and this deep longing grows
and I'm so tired
I'm so tired

is this another way of saying goodbye?
I remember what you said
say it now